Kazu grow up...

Sigh....I must say Kazu had grown up and can understand why his daddy is not here.He's already 3 years old now.Well,Kazu and I went to see Kenichi off at the airport.After checking in,then we went to have breakfast for a while.Kazu was so restless and don't like to sit too long so we walked around Terminal 1.We also took photos of one another since Kazu pointed at big "stars" with many roses.I already told Kazu about his daddy's departure but he shook his head.When it was time for Kenichi to depart,then we hugged and Kazu refused to let him go.I told him that his daddy needs to go and work there.He asked where daddy goes.I told him that it's america so he asked me repeatedly where he goes.I told him that it's very faraway place.So Kazu wanted to follow him but I told him that he don't have so much clothes and passport too.He said he has passport and I keep it but I told him that I leave it at home.He did not care but he still wanted to follow daddy.I told him that he can't go with daddy cuz' he don't have passport so he started to cry and insisted on going with him.I told him patiently that he will be caught by the policeman if he did not have passport but he kept saying I kept his passport.So I control my tears and pulled him away from daddy's arm.Kazu cried loudly and banged the glass window when seeing daddy leaving the airport.He refused to wave bye or blow kiss to him.I told him to say bye and use his hand to wave.He cried loudly and waved his hand to his daddy finally.When Kenichi was out of his sight,then we wiped our tears with tissues.We walked to mrt.Then Kazu suddenly asked for daddy and started to cry again.I told him not to cry and his daddy will come back again.He shook his head in his disbelief so I forced myself to control my tears cuz' I did not want others to wonder why kazu and i were crying at changi airport mrt.Then I carried him and hugged him.So I tried to distract him by playing with him.He was all right and seem to accept that daddy is not around now.Sometimes,he talked about his daddy and said that his daddy always sit with me beside him in the mrt.I think he still remembers daddy though he did not cry any more.
I did not know when Kenichi will come back again and stay with us for longer period this time but I have faith in God who will have plans for us so I believe that we will stay together in future.Kenichi should be on the way to LA now.